We have just had two very bad days with Jacob which came out of the blue, several awful meltdowns have hit us all very badly, we had all being do so well, me and hubby had been working so hard to take more time with Jacob, concentrated on keeping life simple! getting back into the school routine had really helped, the new white board to write down what happens after school was also working so well, and Jacob loved it ! He responded well to being able to reassure himself with what he was doing when….
I think because all of a sudden we seemed to be ‘getting it right’ …..I was lulled into the false of security which seemed to whisper in my ear that all was good, that was it….was I once again back to the denial stage…
This made the Thursday meltdown feel worse than anything we had ever experienced, of course once calm had returned I knew that it wasn’t. Once we had calmed Jacob down to him it was like the meltdown had never happened! like it was erased from his mind! me and hubby sat exhausted , drained and for me very emotional! I felt I had been hit so hard! and the tears flowed once Jacob was safely tucked up in bed.
Aspergers had without warning made an awful return into our lives, it did feel like the enemy during the meltdown , by the next day my precious little boy was happy and calm and excited about school, he carried on, and so if he could I could, so Mummy dusted herself down and carried on, a little stronger, and pushing the sadness that had crept over me away, if he could be happy then I owed it to him to be the same.